Greg de la Cruz works in the tech industry and is the author of two published titles on Amazon.
Getting Burned Out by Your Job
It was January 2016, and I had officially accomplished one year of service for my employer, a Manila-based engineering firm. Those 12 months felt more like two years on the job, as my regular working schedule was from 6 in the morning until 6 at night.
There were three of us who shared the same triple-six routine (Sunday was our only day off). I don’t know about my two other colleagues, who were both older and far more experienced than me (and both former overseas workers), but I yearned for a regular 9-to-5 schedule.
Well, technically, for Filipinos, the 9-to-5 schedule is actually an 8-to-5 schedule since an unpaid one-hour lunch break is squeezed right in the middle of the day. But you could still argue that the Filipino 8-to-5 is still very much a 9-to-5, considering that the first hour is usually when a lot of settling in, coffee-drinking, and office gossip happens. That fresh hour between 8 a.m. and 9 a.m. is the part when co-workers talk about their exploits of the night before (or their weekend escapades if it’s a Monday).
When I reached my milestone of one year of experience under the same employer, I was starting to feel burned out. I always felt envious of the regular workers who were able to report to their jobs between 7 and 9 in the morning and were able to leave as early as 4 p.m. I was starting to feel exhausted by the 4:45 a.m. commute to work, owing to the fact that I was residing three towns (approximately 20 km) away.
I was starting to question whether my choice of a college degree was a smart one. Had I labored those five years in engineering school away only to be enslaved in a system where I barely got any time off?
As I mentioned earlier, upon hitting the one-year mark, I felt like I already had two years on the job. I yearned for fewer (and more regular) working hours, better pay, and more time off. Funny and unusual as it may sound today, I wished for a regular 9-to-5 corporate-ish job.
I eventually quit five months later, seeking admission to a local law school. But whatever I did after my stint at a triple-six work style worked. My wish of getting a job with regular working hours eventually came true.
Barely Noticing the Positives
When I finally landed a job with regular working hours, to be honest, I barely noticed the difference. I was pushing my second year of law school when it happened, and I was trying to balance these two interests on my very limited attention.
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At last, I had a job that started at either 6, 7, or 8 in the morning and ended between 3 and 5 in the afternoon. "As long as you did your eight hours," my old supervisor used to say. It was such an output-based job that as long as I met my daily quota, the company didn’t really care much about what I did afterward. It was like a sales job, and in fact, our team was kind of part of the structure of what you’d call a sales team.
But looking back on that pocket of time, which was longer than I thought (one year and eight months), I hardly took the time to appreciate the fact that my wish of having a regular work schedule had finally come true.
I was too caught up in fitting a full-time law curriculum into my daily schedule, which was at least four hours a night for five nights a week. It was an illustration of my arrogance at the time and how caught up I was in subscribing to hustle culture, which mandated that a person of legal age and able physical condition do everything in their will to fill their days with productivity and self-improvement.
When I think about those days when I had a full-time job while enrolled in law school as a full-time student and put all of that under the backdrop of a world that has changed due to the COVID-19 pandemic, I cringe. How I valued getting the best out of myself over my own physical health and mental well-being, I can no longer fathom today.
And so, when my yearned-for 9-to-5 finally came into existence, I wasn’t there to appreciate the hours I could do whatever I wanted with. Instead, I was there to fill in the missing four hours that I was so used to consuming back in my old job. Because I had such an esteemed view of my own grit, ambition, and willpower, I failed to realize that all of this hard work came at a hefty price.
Finding a Sustainable Pace
To my surprise, I lasted three years having a full-time job while being enrolled as a full-time law student. I had ballooned to a weight that I never want to remember (probably because I went vegan for a little while), and my sleep pattern was disrupted.
To this day, it continues to be hard for me to wind down in the evenings before going to bed—probably because I was so used to using so much mental energy in the hours between 6 and 10 p.m. when law professors were shuffling index cards and calling on the next person in class to answer a question. The effects of my over-ambition from a few years ago continue to haunt me today.
That is why today, I’ve learned to appreciate as much as I possibly can the work schedule that I have. I now have a job that allows me to enjoy the free time I have. The COVID-19 pandemic allowed for all sorts of flexible schedules to pop up, in some cases, overworking people, and in others, allowing for more work-life balance. I have to admit that there are days when I feel overworked, but there are also days when I definitely feel like I've struck a healthy balance. The important thing is that I’m able to find a sustainable pace—this is probably what they mean when they say, "Find your balance."
And so, I no longer yearn for the 9-to-5, and I doubt it will ever truly make a big comeback in a post-pandemic world. Don’t get me wrong—it still exists today in some industries, and it will probably make some kind of a comeback.
But what I do hope doesn’t ever make a comeback is our yearning to fill those hours before 9 a.m. and after 5 a.m. with more stuff to do—stuff that’s supposed to unleash a better version of ourselves. Let’s abandon this hustle culture nonsense. And for those who happen to be in a fortunate position—it's time to be more appreciative of the privilege to pace our days as we please.
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